Jumaat, 25 Mac 2016

As time passes, everything's normal

Assalamualaikum semua.

Lama betul tak update. Baru tadi aku belek-belek entri lama, mak aiii macam-macam kisah terjadi. Ada happy ada yang sedih kecewa pun ada well itulah dianya asam garam kehidupan. Betul tak?

Well, actually aku bukak balik blog ni sebab aku nak cari exact tarikh aku present FYP yang betul-betul finalized tu tapi tak jumpa plak. Because, dalam dua tiga hari ni aku rasa macam tarikh anniversary kami dah dekat, tapi aku tak ingat langsung exact date. Kind of weird for me because usually aku remembers everything. Huhu.

Tapi memandangkan aku tak jumpa pun tarikh tu, maka aku pun saja lahh nak update. For the time being, I am jobless and lots of my free time I'm in self-repairing mode at hometown. Kinda busy sometimes but I am always available for those who appreciates me.

Aku ada satu pertanyaan.

"Boleh ke kau terima perempuan yang pelik macam aku ni?"

How I wished I can discuss about this openly with him. Hmm well, abah dan mak nampaknya punyai perancangan untuk memperkenalkan aku dekat bakal "ahli keluarga" baru. Perkara ni telah pun senyap-senyap dibincangkan bersama adik aku, Usop walhal aku sendiri yang tuan punya badan pun baru tahu dua tiga hari lepas. Kind of terkilan jugak lah. Hmm. it's my life kot yang dorang discuss tu.

Let's see berapa lama benda ni boleh bertahan.

For me, myself ada pendirian sendiri. Aku kalau boleh nak ada kerja tetap dulu sebelum ikat apa-apa tanggungjawab berumahtanga ni. Plus, I can't get over Albert lagi for now, but I really hope I can forget our broken relationship and move on to live a healthy life. Doakan aku, please.

For my parents, they have every rights to determine who is the best life partner for their children. Siapalah aku nak menidakkan kemahuan mereka selagi tak bercanggah dgn syarak. Jika mereka berdua dah redha dengan calon itu, maka aku nak atau taknak berkemungkinan besar kena terima takdir ni dengan rela hati la.

"Kakak memang nampak takde life tujuan lepas apa yang dah jadi tu, I want you to be happy and get supports from the rightful one," kata adik aku, si Usop satu hari. Hmm, Al dah banyak bagi impact dalam hidup aku, I couldn't simply remove him from my mind. But I know my self too well, I can do it given some time to cool down and relax.

For you, my love Al.. Nothing I could say or do to make you feel the same way as I had for you. It's up to you because it's your life anyway. Jika kita tak ditakdirkan bersama dekat sini, I still wish you well for you life. I hope you will pray the same for me with an extra du'a that I will embrace this dengan penuh keimanan. You know what I mean here, don't you?

Selasa, 2 Februari 2016

2015 is a wrap and 2016's resolutions

Salam sejahtera semua.

Entri ni sepatutnya publish awal bulan lepas, but it's still okay to wish you HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016! I guess? Haha, never mind.

Well, nothing much to write since this year I suppose to have different space for emotional/personal issue and my life in overall. That's my biggest mission I create for myself in the year of monkey as in chinese calendar.

Other life missions I have in mind such as able to drive manual car with such confidence I should have when I got the license ID, save up money for Haj registration for me and my mother, bring my family to any place and treat them to spa, nice massage and beautiful moment and lastly, be more responsible, more mature, more fit and healthier, better self, daughter, friend, all in all I want to improve my life not only physically fit but mentally, socially and spiritually stable.

So, yeah. My 2016's life missions are only a few as you can read but believe me I have numerous small life missions I like to call them my self missions. Hehe. I love to play around with any challenge or new experience, so these missions will be updated from time to time.

Currently, I am at home : improve and training myself to be dutiful daughter that my parents will be proud of me one day. I left training at P1 HQ in PJ earlier after 6 months experience of working at office. I learnt my life lessons during those hard yet meaningful time contraints, I should have been more thankful to Him for letting me breathe on His world. *smile*

Just some reminder from incidents happened to me last year, never ever have I ever rest my happiness upon others other than me, myself and I alone. Allah s.w.t is the only One I should rely upon and look for the time I am happy or sad. Families and friends, they are the ones I should shower more love because I know they love me sincerely. So far, I have been staying away from any drama or BS and I want to maintain these contentment feelings I had as long as I am able to hold my patience.

Conclusion : I read somewhere and it sounds like this quote "life gives us chances to carefully follow our own choice to make our birth on this world has its meanings to others when we die later. That's why, C is in the middle of B and D. C-chances/choice , B-birth and D-death. The difference between us is on how we choose our choice to life our own life for our benefit in our life as well as after death."